I miss rachel!

Severus.....

Why would you do this?!?! I lost you to the death eaters. I loved you! Why would you kill dumbledor??!?!?!?! What are you trying to prove? Draco was supose to kill him!!! Not you! If you knew my feeling for you, would it be different? Would you be here with me and not with Lord Voldermort? Yes I said his name, I know I can beat him. He can't even kill a fucking baby.

I love you Severus, if I told you that.....would you have stayed? When Harry returned I told you to stay. I wish I had said those three words, but I didn't and now it's too late.

The man I see in the picture is not the man I love. Your eyes are colder then ever. I wish you knew this. I CRIED, not because Dumbledor was dead, it was because you had killed him? If I see you again, would you kill me and your friends? Should we be afraid more than worried?

I love you.

guys i'm not crazy......its RP ok lol dont worry I havn't gone....that....crazy

bye

.....CMSV HERE IS COME!

Orentation tomorrow....wish me luck!

HOLY FRICK OF NATURE!

I can't believe I will be in college in August.....pinch me

CMSV Class of 2013!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry

I'm sorry for what I said, You know I wasn't proving anything to anyone. Yet I seem to be screwing up anyways. I deleted what I wrote. I kno it was nasty, but the only reason you saw it was because you were logged on to the site, which showed all of them, even the ones that are privite. That entry was privite. No one saw what I wrote but you and me. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. This is not the worst thing I've ever done. Plus it's privite so no one saw. I was so frustrated by that week that I took it out on you. I'm sorry

Meeeezzzzz

I've offically cleaned my room......(part one)

Well, I mean it's just about down, it was mainly going through my closet behind my closet. Over the past years at ASJ, I've collected every piece of paper or thing that I received and I shoved it into my closest behind my closet. I made a pact with myself, that I would empty it out after I graduate. Nine years later I finally graduate and I open my little area to find two HUGE boxes filled with "stuff". So, I spent this weekend going through it all. So many memories that I had just came back like they had happened yesterday. I found all the dreaded notes that a teacher would write out saying I was missing stuff, to my mom of course. Then I found my "Student of the Month" pins which made me laugh. I found letters that I wrote to my therapist saying I was not ready for "Jr. High". Reading those papers made me really think, because if I had followed what I had wrote, I would not be graduating with my class...I'd be graduating with the Juniors. I'm so happy I didn't listen to the people who told me I shouldn't move on. I found my paper on "Why or why not we should wear uniforms" I wrote that in 8th grade, we had this whole debate about the subject, I was Pro uniform....not a lot of people were pro, but I didn't care. Then can freshman year, I had all the notes that Linda and I would pass or write in my notebook during class, it was AWSOME! What really made me laugh was my english binder from freshman year. It was the only organized thing I had that year, because the teacher would eat us if it wasn't organized. I went through all the papers in the binder just laughing because I actually remembered what I was taught that year....OMG FTW! And then I saw the very last page was the thing called "Missing Assignments" she would write down what assignment we were missing and then be all like "shame on you...go die!" I'm kidding of course about the shame on you part....XD but but but but but but, the funny thing was she only wrote one assignment down......I'm like WTF man.......WTF! XD.....I love my years at asj........I'm to lazy to continue so I'm gonna sleep..TBC....<3

go away

10 years later........

It still hurts to know that you're not here.

<3 I wish you were still here by my side.

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while.

Another thing.....

you know that pain "infection" I had in my mouth, well, they had to do fucking a root canal. When I heard that, I literally crawled into a ball and cried. I guess from the experience with my wisdom teeth, I think I have become afraid of all dentist.....I mean it would explain why I'd faint every time I went to the dentist. Anywho, the doctor was super nice and he gave me laughing gas, but it was seriously the strongest laughing gas ever made. A few seconds after i was breathing that stuff I was seriously out of it.....i felt like i was in a trippy state....it was AWSOME! though laughing gas always gives me a "silly" side effect afterwards it was even funnier. I dont exactly remember but what my mom told me I was in the waiting room after the whole thing and there was another guy in there and apparently I annouced to everyone in the room that I had to pee.......I do not remember this at all.....XD Dr. Brownstein is the most AMAZING doctor dude ever....props to him.....ok now I'm going to bed....nite!

Seriously?

I HATE CHANNEL 12 NEWS WITH A FUCKING PASSION!








OMG.......on the bright side The Lion King was awsome, I seriously got chills....<3





Next up on my list, Shrek the Musical








BTWS, for those who have told me that I shouldn't curse, well to bad. This is the one place that I can honestly show my feelings......I'm sorry If I do sound vulger I rather be typing it then saying it........I love you still<3

OMFG!

I"M GRADUATING TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So scared yet so happy.....


Class of 09' I love you!

My fourth mental breakdown this week.

Well, I'm wonder when will it stop. I can be doing any thing when I break. Is it because I've ignored the fact that I'm leaving my "home" and will never see it again? I've denied about ASJ to the point you say the name and I cry. I feel so vulnerable to it all. June

5th will be so hard, not because I'm graduating but its because I'm also turning 18. I'm starting my new book. ASJ is the final chapter of my book. I'm going to be starting

my CMSV chapter.

ASJ CLASS OF 2009,

Seniors and Juniors

<3

At least I accept them

Heartaches

I want the pain to go away.........Live.Laugh.ASJ

.....11 days........

As I sit in my room trying to study, I decided to stop and BLOG! This weekend was soo freakin boring, to start it off I was sick, I still have the stupid infection in my mouth, I have a bad cold...and "other" things. I was supose to go to the beach with this guy i met, but, no I couldn't cause i was sick. So so far I have spent over 8 hours studying....if I dont do well on my final....there will be HELL to pay! Though, there was something that happened that was good, last night I watched The Pit and the Pendulum with some friends.....it was AWSOME! Best movie ever freakin made.....Vincent Price = Amazing.....anyways going to get my hair done....ttyl!

......14 days......

   ~*~ Live.Laugh.ASJ ~*~

I have a confession

I kind of wish Adam had won........

Today is the day....

So Today is my final day of classes as a Senior.....I can't believe it one bit......nope I'm still a freshman.....the good news of this is that I havn't cried yet......^.~ It's a little shocking......so I have to have more people sign my shirt......hehehe.........Today we get to ride in cars and honk ours horns....*HONK HONK* ^.^.........then I do come back on tuesday for one final think the lord....anywho......gtg....I'll ttyl <3

I try to be so strong lately but when I got home today, I cried. I did. I dont care what you think or say. Today was so difficult, Me and a couple of friend were helping clean out on of the classrooms. I never really knew how much memories were in each room. From conduct referals to old tests/ homeworks papers. I still can't see the classrooms bare. Ugh, it's drving me crazy! All I want to do is turn back time and stop from this ever happening. You know what makes my heart ache? Is when we received the blankets, it had 1856-2009. It sound likes it died. I think we should be embracing the fact that it will never be gone. ASJ isn't a building, it's a spirit that lives in every one off us. So yes the building may be shutting it's doors but we're not shutting our doors on asj. ASJ.........forever in our hearts. I'm lucky to have been touched by it's magic.
~Courtney~ Senior~2009~
Live.Laugh.ASJ.

Ok this has gone far enough......

I have been so patient with the juniors, but now I'm done. So I put a post about asj and it was how I can't believe it's closing....yadda yadda yadda.....and I said this one thing about how we're the last graduating class.....well I check my comments I received one by a junior saying "actually we're the last graduating class" That got me so pissed, we are all fucking graduationg and it annoys the heck out of me that it has to been a compatition on who graduate last. Just because the ceremony is right after ours, doesn't mean shit.
We're SUPPOSED to be a family, but after this year.......it seems all that matters is who is graduating first. Their still juniors and we're still seniors, yes they get the some of the privilages as we do that doesn't change the fact. I'm sorry if I'm sounding selffish but so what, every time I here someone from the Junior class ranting about us, I just let it go, now......IDK.........I love asj to much to be fighting, but you seriously need to stop saying who's graduating last.....I'm SO SICK OF IT!

ADHD comes with it's perks.

So today, I'm going to be honored for my ADHD. How exciting is that? I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was in first grade when my mom and my teacher Ms. Harrington knew that I something wasnt right. I wasn't like everyone else, I wasn't able to sit down and do homework....no no that was not me at all. I would be the one staring off into space or saw something more intresting then my homework. So you may think thats not that bad, but it was. In school I could never sit still for more than a minute, I was always walking around. I didn't do it on purpose I just could help myself. My mom originally thought that maybe I had something was wrong with my brain. Nope it's just ADHD. I was put on medication for it, once in the morning and once during the day. It worked....alittle but I was still hyper and still had trouble concentrating. years go by now and I started at a new school with new teachers. yeah they knew I had ADHD but, they actually helped. I was still hypers but then over the years i started to calm down a lot, but my concertation was still shot. Now I'm a senior, going to a great college and with a scholarship from CHADD. It just shows you even if you have ADHD you can still go far.

Red and wihite just runs through my veins.

Yes people, another ASJ blog lol. Today someone asked me why I was such a school girl. I told them I wasn't a school girl, I was an Academy girl theres a big difference. I don't think I ever have to give a reason why I have such a heart for ASJ, I just do. I told the person that I have red and white flowing through my veins (It's ASJs school colors if you didnt know). I'm so sick of people asking me why I love ASJ, so here is my answer to every person who has ever aksed me. ASJ has impacted me soooooo much and because I do. I Love ASJ, it's that simple. Today I had a CSE meeting, and it was amazing to here the things from the people who were there. I guess I can say I have come along way, I give credit to asj because they helped a lot. ok ok lol I'm done talking because I want to finnish the Hamlet essay tonight before bed. I'll TTYL <3

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Going Insane.

I can't believe that I'll be graduating soon, it seems so unreal. Nines years ago I started on a long wonderful journey, the thinking I would ever Finnish was unreal to me. It is going to be so hard the last month before the big day. I love ASJ so much, and the fact is that we are the last graduating class. It's so hard to think that, what am I going to do with out my ASJ. I mean I know I'm ready for college (I've had the best people ever help me prepare for it), but the story remains the same. I know it will be hard at first, but I do think that It will be easier, its a good thing I'll be somewhere just as great as ASJ. I'm going to CMSV next year, very excited about that. When I feel that my journey is coming to an end, a new one opens up. People always ask "what will you miss the most about ASJ?" I can never answer it, because there's just to much to say. From Merit Programs to Merit slips (I received about a billions of those in the lower school! To Jr. High to high school. From all the teachers that I have ever met, I always laugh because I know some of the teachers so well, even the one that have never-ever taught me. When I was little I always tried to make a teacher happy, it didn't matter if they were the worst/meanest/most unfair teacher alive, know that this was PRE-ASJ time. At ASJ, I didn't need to try hard to have a teacher like me, their just that amazing. Oh my God, I'm getting all teary. Ok I think I'm going to stop before I turn on the faucets...you know what I mean.

TTYL MY DEAR FRIENDS!

~*~ Academy Girl~*~

Once again....I'm at school.

I'm here with my Sasha who is eating cheese thingies......^.^. We have to be quiet cause we're in a classroom........hehehe, so I'll be loud here.....OMG SASHA HOW ARE YOU??!?!?!?! shes good. So yesterday was hot as hell, I tried to stay cool by staying in my cave, but it got just as hot as it was outside. ok I'm tired of typing, so here are some random icons.

bored a fricken ever.....though I should be doing....stuff

Let's start it off with, are you available?
yeah

What school does the last person you kissed attend?
idk where lol XD

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
yes

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
yes

What are you currently hearing right now?

My ipod and the fan

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yes

Were you happy when you woke up today?
ugh no becuase people annoy me when then call me at 8:30 in the morning

Do you keep a planner?
try to XD

What kind of mood are you in today?
pretty good one ^.^

Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
not yet XD

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
My mom?

Will this weekend be a good one?
this weekendd was a good weekend next week who knows

How late did you stay up last night and why?
um....12 ish......I was writing

Do you miss anyone?
yea

What did you realize today?
that people give me attitude around other people.

If you like someone, have you told them?
no

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to do again?
hells yeah

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
I guess

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
um..yeah

Would you rather go back a week or go forwards?
back....i'm not ready for the "big" day

Are you in a good mood right now?
um...yeah

When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?

idk...its been a while

Which of your parents did you see last?
mum

You stand how tall from the ground?
4'10 1/2 (SHUT UP PEOPLE!)

Can you count your serious relationships on one hand?
yeah

Kissed anyone with the name starting with an A, T, D, S, J or M?
yeah

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
omg yeah

Do you hope your children are like you one day?
lol yeah....^.^

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
...yes....ug htat bugs the SHIT outta me

Would you ever smile at a stranger?
um./...yea?

How long have you liked the person you do?
since forver.

Can you describe your father in one word?

fucker

Have you ever thrown a shoe at someone?
yes!!!!

Are you one of those twilight crazy people?
I ONLY LIKE CARLISLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How often do you raise your hand in class and answer a question?
um...when I know it XD

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
number one? yo this isn't myspace.

Have you held hands with anyone recently?
I hate holding hands.........but i did last week during cullinry

Do you call people douchebags?

HAHAHA depends who they are....omg....HAHA

December, what was your love life like?
sucked

Do you have someone who you can completely be yourself around?
a few

Are you usually the first to say you're sorry in a fight or last?
first

Honestly how many people have you truly fallen for?
2

Will this week be good?
um...idk

Have you ever thought you liked someone and then found out that you really didn't?
um not really

Do you drink water?
yes

Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Probabily

Expecting something to change in the next month?
yeah my cell phone.

I'm scared.

I'm not a hundred percent sure why, but The Pit and the Pendulum thing has me really freaked out. I was watching the old movie about it on youtube and I got really scared. I dont have many fears but when ever I think about the pit and the pendulum I flip. I blame Mrs. Geraghty, ever since tenth grade when she first gave me the movie to watch I've been scared. The extremely weird thing is that, I've every possible horror movie out there and my reaction was nothing, this Holy crap.  I've read alot of Edgar Allan Poe stories, but none seem to be as freaky as this story. Even the tell-tale heart wasn't even that bad. Idk......I'm just a little freaked out thats all. Well it's getting late, so I'm heading off to bed....and try and sleep.......Luncheon thingie tomorrow <3

xoxox

Courtnerizer

Somewhat Bored.

Its around 11:16 am and I'm in school wating for Religion to start. The most devastating thing happened, our little ASJ sign in front of our school is gone! I'm like WTF??!?!?!?! tomorrow is the alumne luncheon, some pretty fun stuff. anywho so you know what I was thinking? My mind has run out of words to say for now...but here are some pretty pictures to make you smile....

The EYE.

So today I had a very freaky/intresting English Class. See, we've been reading these short stories and one of them was called the Tell Tale Heart and Mrs. Geraghty was so excited because she wanted to read it, so she did. Kind of Bummed cause I wanted to read it but nvm that. So she was reading it and well shes very good at Dramatizing stories. So she was movin around and what not, and seriously my blood went cold a few times. You know though what I dont get it that why would a man killed a guy because of his eye? Yeah it might be creepy looking but does that even matter? I totally think he is insane BTW. Hear the heart beating faster and faster and louder! HAHAHAHAHAHA XD I love english class. <3

They Found Me!

Ok guys last night was freakin crazy. It was a little after ten and my mom was like "do you hear Helicopters?" Now knowing me I took off for the second floor, we have a roof deck thingie which is fun to go on......anywho so I ran up stairs and went out side. Now I saw two Helicopter and all they were doing was circle south amityville. I was like oooooohhhhh cccrraapp. It went around a few times but then....it was coming near my house and it was shiney a freakin light on me. I looked like a deer in head lights. I ran inside, my heart racing.....IDK why they were out there last night but what ever they were doing......lol......

So its almost 6 Cuddles got really sick a little while ago soI'm staying up to see if she gets sick again. I have to get ready at 6 because what do i have today?? SCHOOL! whhoopee anywho
TTYL MY DEAR FRIENDS!
~*~Academy Girl~*~

English Class.

So its 12:49 p.m. and I'm English.....well not my English class it's the freshman (or Fresh monsters as Mrs. G calls them) You know it always get me thinking, English, will anyone be perfect in the main subject? I mean even I'm not perfect, I'm good at it....the literature part not the whole grammar part. Listening to Mrs. G reading Fahrenheit 451, it's about buring books! I dont get it why read a book about burning such precious items! Anywho back to English, I mean are "English" teachers perfect at Englsih? I 'm yeah the act like they knew EVERYTHING that ever happened in the English world, but I think there are more secrets that even they don't know.

When i was in ninth grade, I really wanted to become an english teacher, but then thinking if I did I don't think I would be teaching Grammar because well it's not my best. Then it got me thinking, do i really have the patience for children? Yeah well not really unless they were my own. I do love english as a subject, but never for my future.

Well I might write when I'm older, the presence of my school, is something that I know I could write, and I have but those stories will never leave my house, I have go reasons for it. Heh!

I think I could write the next great american novel. HAHAH wouldn't that be great. The things I could write about that has to do with ASJ (Academy of St. Joseph). Now that I think about it, I think I really could do that. Hmm.....maybe I will. Lets just wait and see.

TTYL MY DEAR FRIENDS!
~*~ Academy Girl ~*~

Did I mention dreams?

I was watching Twilight today and all I felt as if I was watching someone dreams. It was just so unreal even though it was indeed a move ere go it was not real. But I did start thinking, could you watch other peoples dreams with out realizing it? If you can then I'm in big trouble. I was talking to another Friend about her dreams and even though she was telling me about it, I just couldn't get into it. Dreams always seem to amaze me, and the weird thing is 80% of the dreams take place at my school.
I've had many dreams where it will be focus on two people me and someone else whether it's a really good friend a teacher or some stranger. 90% of the time the person is trying to eat me or something like that. It's really werid, I think it was two or three nights ago I had this dream that I was running through the hallways at asj and it was really foggy which is weird because I was "inside" the school. All I saw was a very tall person wereing all Black and it wasn't running it was gliding.....well.....then it just goes blank. My friend Linda and I got about them because she says it means I'll probably die at school. Oh fun!
Anyways it's getting late and of course guess where I get to go tomorrow?!?!?! Wanna know.....SCHOOL!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I love ASJ so it's ok really lol!
TTYL MY DEAR FRIENDS
~*~ACADEMY GIRL~*~