Sorry

I'm sorry for what I said, You know I wasn't proving anything to anyone. Yet I seem to be screwing up anyways. I deleted what I wrote. I kno it was nasty, but the only reason you saw it was because you were logged on to the site, which showed all of them, even the ones that are privite. That entry was privite. No one saw what I wrote but you and me. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. This is not the worst thing I've ever done. Plus it's privite so no one saw. I was so frustrated by that week that I took it out on you. I'm sorry

Meeeezzzzz

I've offically cleaned my room......(part one)

Well, I mean it's just about down, it was mainly going through my closet behind my closet. Over the past years at ASJ, I've collected every piece of paper or thing that I received and I shoved it into my closest behind my closet. I made a pact with myself, that I would empty it out after I graduate. Nine years later I finally graduate and I open my little area to find two HUGE boxes filled with "stuff". So, I spent this weekend going through it all. So many memories that I had just came back like they had happened yesterday. I found all the dreaded notes that a teacher would write out saying I was missing stuff, to my mom of course. Then I found my "Student of the Month" pins which made me laugh. I found letters that I wrote to my therapist saying I was not ready for "Jr. High". Reading those papers made me really think, because if I had followed what I had wrote, I would not be graduating with my class...I'd be graduating with the Juniors. I'm so happy I didn't listen to the people who told me I shouldn't move on. I found my paper on "Why or why not we should wear uniforms" I wrote that in 8th grade, we had this whole debate about the subject, I was Pro uniform....not a lot of people were pro, but I didn't care. Then can freshman year, I had all the notes that Linda and I would pass or write in my notebook during class, it was AWSOME! What really made me laugh was my english binder from freshman year. It was the only organized thing I had that year, because the teacher would eat us if it wasn't organized. I went through all the papers in the binder just laughing because I actually remembered what I was taught that year....OMG FTW! And then I saw the very last page was the thing called "Missing Assignments" she would write down what assignment we were missing and then be all like "shame on you...go die!" I'm kidding of course about the shame on you part....XD but but but but but but, the funny thing was she only wrote one assignment down......I'm like WTF man.......WTF! XD.....I love my years at asj........I'm to lazy to continue so I'm gonna sleep..TBC....<3

go away

10 years later........

It still hurts to know that you're not here.

<3 I wish you were still here by my side.

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while.

Another thing.....

you know that pain "infection" I had in my mouth, well, they had to do fucking a root canal. When I heard that, I literally crawled into a ball and cried. I guess from the experience with my wisdom teeth, I think I have become afraid of all dentist.....I mean it would explain why I'd faint every time I went to the dentist. Anywho, the doctor was super nice and he gave me laughing gas, but it was seriously the strongest laughing gas ever made. A few seconds after i was breathing that stuff I was seriously out of it.....i felt like i was in a trippy state....it was AWSOME! though laughing gas always gives me a "silly" side effect afterwards it was even funnier. I dont exactly remember but what my mom told me I was in the waiting room after the whole thing and there was another guy in there and apparently I annouced to everyone in the room that I had to pee.......I do not remember this at all.....XD Dr. Brownstein is the most AMAZING doctor dude ever....props to him.....ok now I'm going to bed....nite!

Seriously?

I HATE CHANNEL 12 NEWS WITH A FUCKING PASSION!








OMG.......on the bright side The Lion King was awsome, I seriously got chills....<3





Next up on my list, Shrek the Musical








BTWS, for those who have told me that I shouldn't curse, well to bad. This is the one place that I can honestly show my feelings......I'm sorry If I do sound vulger I rather be typing it then saying it........I love you still<3

OMFG!

I"M GRADUATING TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So scared yet so happy.....


Class of 09' I love you!

My fourth mental breakdown this week.

Well, I'm wonder when will it stop. I can be doing any thing when I break. Is it because I've ignored the fact that I'm leaving my "home" and will never see it again? I've denied about ASJ to the point you say the name and I cry. I feel so vulnerable to it all. June

5th will be so hard, not because I'm graduating but its because I'm also turning 18. I'm starting my new book. ASJ is the final chapter of my book. I'm going to be starting

my CMSV chapter.

ASJ CLASS OF 2009,

Seniors and Juniors

<3

At least I accept them