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Ten things I'd like to say to certain people. (but don't say their name, you can repeat people)

1. You Broke my heart......I really wish you would open your eyes and grow up!
2. I love you so much, you have completed my life.
3. I really do hate you I never did one thing to you and yet you can be so cruel.
4. I really wish you would leave me alone.
5. You are my sister forever.....<3
6. I miss getting to see you every day.
7. I'm ready to move on.....without you.
8. thank you for ever thing you've done for me I love you!
9. I'm not a child anymore, stop treating me like one.
10. You are a bitch....I hate you.......I'm glad you're gone from my life.

Nine things about myself that you may or may not know.

1. I'm not as nice as every one thinks.
2. I'm actually quiet more then it looks
3. I wish I could relive my childhood
4. I love to write about death.
5. When I am angry you can see it.
6. I hate people who are too nice....
7. I love helping people
8. I acutally dont think I can sing well.
9. I dont like mixing me school friends with my home friends.
Eight ways to win my heart.

1. be honest
2. be there for me
3. make me laugh
4. Help me find hogwarts
5. be yourself
6. attempt to understand me
7. You listen to me and I listen to you
8. Dont contradict me....


Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. My mom
2. CMSV
3. My sister
4. Him
5. cuddles
6. people who need to get a life
7. life

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

1. type.
2. shower
3. facebook
4. talk to friends
5. Aim
6. watch tv

Five of your favorites.

1. Favorite band: AFI
2. Favorite food: Carrots
3. Favorite color: purple
4. Favorite thing to do: write
5. Favorite song: Miss Murder

Four things I'm wearing right now.

1. My snape first
2. Slyherin necklace
3. blue plaid pants
4. Class ring

Three bands/artists that I listen to often.

1. AFI
2. Lady Gaga
3. Owl city

Two things I want to do before I die.

1. Write a book
2. meet Mariska Hargitay

One wish.
1. To live a good life

Okay so...who wants to here about my Life?!?! No? Well too bad it's my blog!
lol
Anywho so my last blog was in November.....to many things have been happening.
here is the list

• Christmas Vacation
• Met my birthmother
• Got Kick out of my college.
• Appealed my dismisal
• They decided to suspend me.
• Got a boyfriend
• Got dumped over facebook
• and my depression come back with extras!

So yes this is how it's been. Oh meeting my birthmother was a real treat for me...not. I was soooo postive that everything would go great. It did not. We never clicked. I mean we were doing so well before I met her in person. We would always talk on the phone. But every since we met in person. It's never been the same. I acutally came home a day early because we never clicked. My heart was beaten up. But of course it gets better. She pretty much told me that she doesnt want to talk to me anymore. That was January. and it's now March. She also had her friend harassing me becuase I was the selfish and never actually took time and understood my mom. First off, it's not my fault we didnt click. And she told me way too much. I dont know it was way more then I can handle.

When I got home from the whole birthmother meet. I got my dismisal letter. (it was the day after I had gotten back) I was devestated. I thought for sure that I would be a academic probabtion that was it. When I found out, I called My academic advisor and Kim who it the head of the Academic Resource Center. They were blindsided by the whole thing. We had to right an appeal about it. And fast, we were past the cut off date. I was at such a panic with it. But of course even with the appeal. I didnt get to go back this semester. BUT BUT BUT! I am able to go back in september if I take some course and get my GPA up. Start over with a clean slate. So I was very happy about that.

So yes these past few month have not been the best. But spring is in the air and I can feel myself starting to emotionally heal from everything.

I'll also be blogging a lot more. It's great to just get everything out.

Well that's enough for one day.

TTYL

~*~ Academy Girl ~*~